A total of 13,339 people died in King County in 2008. (The data for 2009 hasn't been tabulated yet.) Sixteen percent of them—2,121 people—became cases for the county Medical Examiner's Office: 85 were murdered, 163 died in traffic accidents, and 210 committed suicide. Of the suicides, 93 shot themselves. (In the same year, there were 45 gun-related murders: If you're going to die by gunfire in these parts, you'll most likely be pulling the trigger.)
This morning, at my work, we got a call saying one of the women who works Friday-Saturday-Sunday would not be in this weekend. Later Amanda (who took the call) said that she was told that the person couldn't say what the exact problem was, but she was in the hospital. My manager Amanda, just recently suffered the loss of her mother from a stroke, and was not in a good state after getting that call about our coworker as it was very similar to the one she got about her mother just a few days before she died.
It turns out the reason the coworker was in the hospital was not for sickness, which we had just assumed.
She shot herself.
She committed suicide.
It wasn't instantly fatal - she lived long enough to be taken to the hospital (why whoever called did not want to disclose why she was there). Later we got several calls confirming - she didn't survive.
All I can think is that if it wasn't an instantly fatal shot, what was she thinking, between pulling the trigger and it finally being over.
And what's going to happen to her kids?
There's not much to say here. I only worked with her one day out of the week but, I still knew her. I still knew that she lived with her kids and her brother who was unstable and her ex-husband was a pretty bad person so that's why she had all the children, and that her eldest son is autistic and very smart. Apparently her father found her, and just called everyone in her cellphone contact list to let them know.
Right now, I mainly feel just numb.