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16 February 2011 @ 12:55 am
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The May 4th issue of The Stranger last year had an article called "To Be Or Not To Be?" in it, written by Brendan Kiley. It was mainly about suicide, relating to the railing that was being put up for the Aurora Bridge (#2 most popular suicide jumping location in the USA, if you didn't know). There was one like in particular in it, though, that's stuck with me all day today.

A total of 13,339 people died in King County in 2008. (The data for 2009 hasn't been tabulated yet.) Sixteen percent of them—2,121 people—became cases for the county Medical Examiner's Office: 85 were murdered, 163 died in traffic accidents, and 210 committed suicide. Of the suicides, 93 shot themselves. (In the same year, there were 45 gun-related murders: If you're going to die by gunfire in these parts, you'll most likely be pulling the trigger.)

This morning, at my work, we got a call saying one of the women who works Friday-Saturday-Sunday would not be in this weekend. Later Amanda (who took the call) said that she was told that the person couldn't say what the exact problem was, but she was in the hospital. My manager Amanda, just recently suffered the loss of her mother from a stroke, and was not in a good state after getting that call about our coworker as it was very similar to the one she got about her mother just a few days before she died.

It turns out the reason the coworker was in the hospital was not for sickness, which we had just assumed.

She shot herself.

She committed suicide.

It wasn't instantly fatal - she lived long enough to be taken to the hospital (why whoever called did not want to disclose why she was there). Later we got several calls confirming - she didn't survive.

All I can think is that if it wasn't an instantly fatal shot, what was she thinking, between pulling the trigger and it finally being over.

And what's going to happen to her kids?

There's not much to say here. I only worked with her one day out of the week but, I still knew her. I still knew that she lived with her kids and her brother who was unstable and her ex-husband was a pretty bad person so that's why she had all the children, and that her eldest son is autistic and very smart. Apparently her father found her, and just called everyone in her cellphone contact list to let them know.

Right now, I mainly feel just numb.
DWI IIwistol on February 16th, 2011 02:20 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear that. It's not easy when someone you knew commits suicide.

Remember you have friends if you need them.
the Antisocial Little Ice Queen: KH: It's either sink or swimvaultedthewall on February 17th, 2011 10:05 am (UTC)
Honestly I don't think it's still really hit me yet. I only saw her on Fridays, so it probably won't until I go into the office and I don't see her there at her normal computer. Apparently she did leave a note, though we don't know much more than that yet.